As you can tell, i`ve basically quit xanga just like everyone else but i`ve decided to write in here about graduation because well, i want to remember it. It`s kindof strange how much i wasn`t sad at graduation except when steph and taryn were making their speech but besides that, i was surprisingly okay. I am so glad to have met the people i have met . . . the ones that are still in my life and the ones that are not. I just want to say that everyone has made a lasting impression on me and that i am a better person because of each and everyone i have come across from. I don`t think people realize how much i have grown but i have, it`s kindof crazy. There`s someone in particular that has taught me the most and they mean a lot to me . . . they just don`t know. I hope one day, they`ll know. Anyways . . . i just got to say that grad nite was fricking AMAZING<3 . . . everybody just made it so awesome especially randi "easy" johnson. I think what made it so awesome is because i could act all crazy and not worry that the next day i`ll be seeing these people. I wish that i would have done that throughout the four years buttt no point of regreting, right? I mean i certainly regret some things but it`s something you just have to get over. Plus, i`m really content with my life at the moment.

Class of `06: I hope you had the time of your lives because i sure did !!

What is your favorite..
gum:	Orbit or that orange gum
restaurant:	Applebee`s
drink:	Strawberry banana smoothies :)
season:	Summer of course
type of weather:	Sunny but not too hot
emotion:	Elation / Pride
thing to do on a half day:	Just chilllll with the friends . . . mmm, football<3
late-night activity:	Doing something unique or partyyy
sport:	Basketball, flag football, and softball
city:	Dublin<3 i love it
store:	Abercrombie or Hollister
When was the last time you..
cried:	I shed a tear during graduation. I`m not sure when the last time i cried cried was though
played a sport:	Football on wednesday . . . i beat beezies up
laughed:	Today . . . oOo c.bo
hugged someone:	Def. yesterday
kissed someone:	Prom, i`m in withdrawal :(
felt depressed:	Uhhhhh, it was recently but nothing big . . . it was just sadness i suppose
felt elated:	Yesterday night
felt overworked:	Wednesday
faked sick:	Don`t do that
lied:	I`m not sure
What was the last..
word you said:	I`m not sure
thing you ate:	Pizza Hut -- Pepperoni pizza
song you listened to:	Probably hyphy music (I was mean muggn` in oakland today)
thing you drank:	Sierra Mist
place you went to:	Oakland collesium (Spelling?!) A`s groupie right here
movie you saw:	Uhm, Da Vinci Code
movie you rented:	My mom rented Family Stone
concert you attended:	GREEN F-IN DAY . . . AMAZING<3
Who was the last person you..
hugged:	I don`t know . . . the class of '06
cried over:	I shed a tear for the class of '06
kissed:	Brazil (Kym, it's a guy)
danced with:	Randi . . . great times
shared a secret with:	I don`t know . . . kim?
had a sleepover with:	Kim
called:	Home
went to a movie with:	Erika
saw:	My mother
were angry with:	My mother because she is the most annoying person EVER
couldn't take your eyes off of:	Hm, probably some random ass guy orrr manny, haha
obsessed over:	Brazil
Have you ever..
danced in the rain:	I don`t think so
kissed someone:	Yep
done drugs:	Yep
drank alcohol:	Yep
slept around:	Nope
partied 'til the sun came up:	Yep
had a movie marathon:	Yep
gone too far on a dare:	Nope
spun until you were immensely dizzy:	Yep
taken a survey quite like this before:	Yep, actually took this from an entry that is like 2 years old

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Last night was def. AMAZING !!

Ilovebeinginhisarms<3

Stole this from the lovely leanne <3

Rules: Write a statement intended for 10 random people. NEVER TELL which one is intended for who.

1. Everything is complicated with you right now but then again when is it not? We are either hot or cold, we cannot be anything in between because of our feelings for each other. I really do like you but i know i have to move on. If i do move on, i`ll surely miss hanging out ;D i hate knowing the shit you do to me but yet that i`m still going to find my way back to you. Well now, i`m not running back to you. Well, i hope not. You have this great timing where i`m just about to move on && BAM !!, you pop right back into my life out of nowhere.

2. I don`t know what is happening. I don`t know if i said anything like that or not, i vaguely remember. I think i might have purposely blocked it out? But i surely hope that everything gets fixed because even though we might not be too close, you are still bomb. You truly are an amazing person and she just doesn`t realize how fricking lucky she is but she will soon, i hope.

3. We aren`t as close anymore but we still talk so whatever. I still consider you one of my best friends, you always will be. I will never forget what you gave up for me, which you did not have to. If you only told the truth then everything would not have been so complicated but i`m just glad you`re still part of my life. You are the most hilarious person i have ever met.

4. Mannn, i`m crazy around you, end of story. LOL. We have the funniest times together and CHEE is just so hilarious, i have never laughed so hard. People say you`ve changed && at one point i thought the same but once i got to talk to you again like old times, i realized that you are just the same old person that everyone loves. You might have changed JUST SLIGHTLY but we still have those good times. You are one of my best friends <3 i`ll always cherish the bday gift you made me last year.

5. I`m just starting to get to know you && boy, do i love it !! You crack me up so bad && i feel kindof bad that i give you a hard time buttt it`s just so much fun =] i never really thought you were all that cute but after getting to know you, you are just ADORABLE. I think i`ll be falling for you soon, lol.

6. I`ve known you the longest, i really couldn`t live without you, you are TRULY my bestest friendest. It`s funny you know how we do not see each other for like a month but once we get together, it`s exactly how we left it, it`s SOSOSO awesome. You wake me up a lot && i get pissed off like no other but that is just how are relationship is <3 we`re both worried about me going off to college and the distance but i know that we`ll be friends forever, not as close but once we see each other, it will be like it was 9 nine years ago.

7. I have no hard feelings towards you whatsoever but i guess for you it`s a different story . . . well, that`s what i`ve heard. I`m over it && you should be too. You are happy && that`s cool so don`t worry about the crap that happened in the past.

8. I come to you for advice because all the shit i`m going through at the moment, you`ve been through. You have made a lot of mistakes, some unforgiveable but you know i have a soft spot for you. You are very manipulative && i know it, i just can`t bring myself to think of you as a bad person, you are the person that has been with me throughout EVERYTHING. You know what goes on at home && you help me through it a great deal, i`m so thankful for you but then again, you`ve screwed me up so bad. I don`t know anymore, i don`t know how to trust right.

9. You are my best friend at the moment. I have had a lot of best friends but you are different from all of them. I can speak with you about ANYTHING && you wouldn`t judge me except maybe that one thing i do that you hate but i quit, i think. I have had some of my best memories with you, it`s like we`re a couple, seriously. I do not know what i would do without you, hm, i can`t even go a day without you. HAHAHAHA, i crack myself up by just thinking about the memories. Collie Man -Slightly Stoopid FOLIFE<3.

10. You`re one of my good friends && i hope you know that. I know you wanted something more but i`m just not into relationships, you know? I`m just having fun. I think you`re awesome but i don`t think we are at the same maturity level.

So basically, last night was bombass. It was the first football game and dance . . . whomp whomp !! Andy, kim, kira, and me came to the football game like an hour and a half late && it was still fricking second quarter. Ughh, i hate football games because you freeze your ass off buttt it was good talking to people that you haven`t talked to in forever like mr. curtis champlain  where has he been all my life ?!! Shoot. After the game, erik brought me to AMPM where everyone was at && we headed off the the dance !! !! !! Gosh, the dance owned xBajillion. I was getting hyphyyy with like EVERYONE. Anyways, today i have workkk then i`m fricking getting crunk at nick`s house  wooooot.

I  l o v e  m y  f r i e n d s  .

Okay, here`s my summer in review:

Let me just start by saying that life is amazing right now . . . seriously, i`ve never been this happy since ever. Buttt anyways, this summer has by far been the best. It`s weird you know how i never really went to vacation at all this summer buttt it was still the best because i hung out with the most chill people. Ever. I don`t think i`ll ever forget the countless people i hung out with this summer especially criztnuh, don, kim, and tom . . . they were the ones that were basically with me everyday of this summer <33 gosh, summer `05 = bomb. I tried many different new things . . . some bad (buttt i quit for the sake of kim&&scilli) and some good, such as dirtbiking  gosh, i love that sport. I think i`ll go dirtbiking more often as long as don still around. It was awesome because the biggest worry i had was to find the perfect outfit, hahaha. I wish life was like that all the time. There were no conflicts whatsoever && i found out that i have the most amazing friends in the whole wide world . . . i know i`ve said that before buttt it`s true right now . . . i can`t live without them. Being in SoCal was amazing these past few days buttt it was so hard for me to not see anyone. Wow . . . boys, big part of my summer. Some flirting there . . . some flings here . . . all awesome  like haaaaanh, hahaha. Dude, i love shopping !! . . . in SoCal. SENIOR YEAR GUYS <33 IT`S GOING TO ROCK !! I feel so great about basically everything . . .you gotta love it !! It`s weird how you think things are coming apart buttt then BAM . . . you`re just so fcuking happy it`s crazy.

L i f e  j u s t  k e e p s  o n  g e t t i n g  b e t t e r .

Basically, to sum up the summer: `` Dude, it`s hard being this tight ``

PS -- Guess who has a fricking job ?!! oOo yeah, MEEEEE !!